Try to relax. The pineapple thing is over. No more silly talk along those lines.
OK, maybe it's time for a little heartwarming honesty.
I think I'm pretty lonely at the moment. Not that there's no-one to talk to, although Fiona has been away a lot and others I speak to regularly are either away for the weekend or on holiday at the moment. I think the feeling of loneliness comes more from not being properly inserted into the hubbub which is normally my life.
I am avoiding anything which involves me being called out, as driving is a very tricky and dangerous endeavour at the moment. I have cancelled all my usual activities which involve attending anything - like playing at church, for example. I have even discouraged all but my closest friends from calling here. I just can't face the stress of pretending to OK in order to make them feel better.
So, I am in a strange sort of limbo. Sure, I can do work as and when I feel able, but I also spend a significant amount of time during the day asleep - very unlike me. I'd love to be able to say that I've been doing a lot of thinking, but I don't think that's true either. Such thinking as I have been doing has been rather negative.
Time for a change of attitude, whatever it takes.
I think I need to somehow get out and do something. Not sure what yet, but my brain is ticking.
Anyway, thanks for listening again - I feel you've helped me. :)
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