CNPS: 1 (5)
Weather:
Still very warm, but more overcast today. I suspect it will continue to be muggy.
Mood:
At last I can say that I am starting to be more optimistic. I'm not, of course, but my renewed ability to lie must indicate some form of improvement.
Enjoying:
I /have been/ enjoying:
Hell's Kitchen - This one was worth it to witness, first hand, Gordon Ramsey's uncanny ability to deliver exactly the right insult at any given moment. His imagery is stunning, and much to be admired. When he referred to Edwina Curry as one who "farts too high for her own arsehole", I was laughing so hard I forgot to be outraged by the rudeness. In any event, Edwina was so rude and unco-operative at all stages, I tend to believe she got exactly what she deserved. I was as gutted as Al Murray was himself when he got voted off. He should have been a close contender for the title. As it was, Jen was the rightful winner and I am happy for her. I hope there is not too long to wait before we can enjoy Gordon's rich, delightful put-downs and insults once again.
Big Brother - I don't even need to scan around the blogs I read to know that many are "covering" Big Brother 5 very well indeed. Many with in-depth things and clever anal ysis. These comments alone demonstrate my eagerness not to be branded with the BB "Obsessive" title, but I will admit to being a keen watcher of the program. My main feeling is one of relief that we have a more interesting and quirky bunch of housemates this year. In general I think it is shaping up really well. My only complaint is the prize-money tactic in relation to the live challenges. It seems likely that this will mean that the already derisory amount will be significantly depleted this year. If they fail all remaining tasks, they might end up with nothing. Having told the housemates there is a prize fund of 100,000 pounds, this is little short of lying. Big Brother producers knew they would never be paying anywhere near that out. Sure, be evil - we love that - but let's have a real nice prize at the end...or why bother? With nothing much to fight for, will they lose interest towards the end?
Andy's Thought for the day:
In the real world out there that's full of terrible conflict and all kinds of bad things, humans feel a strong need for a form of total escapism to take us away from the horror. What do we call this total escapism? Reality TV.
Next nice thing:
I'm trying to learn a new and complex piece of video editing software. My next nice thing will be mastering it.
Pain: 99% - I can write it here now that it is safely back into double figures.
Other comments:
So here I am. I feel like I am "Back". The pain is still problematic at times, but I feel more like myself now. Thanks so much to all who have so kindly sent good wishes. I have truly felt supported and sustained by the strength of the good feelings sent out to me. I discover I have more good friends than I deserve. Bless you all.
I have the rest of this week to recover, and I expect to ease myself back into proper work next week. It's nice having the time to think and the opportunity to have opinions again. Being unwell puts me into a very selfish state, when all I can think of is myself and my pain. I actually hate that, because so much of the pleasure I derive from life comes from my involvement in the lives of others. I would hate to live my life in a bubble.
Hey, it's good to be back.
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